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#ThisIsMyTruth: I’ve struggled with body image & self confidence since my Freshman year of college. I had been an athlete all my life & because of it, I could eat whatever I wanted & not see any side effects. When I entered college my poor eating & exercise habits catapulted my body into something I didn’t recognize. My hips continued to grow wider & wider, I developed cellulite on my legs, and I lost that coveted “thigh gap.” One moment that is burned in my mind was when a random guy stuck his head out his window & shouted to me, “you’re too fat for those shorts!” My jaw would’ve hit the floor if it was able. For my entire life I had been the tall, skinny one & being seen as “big” was something foreign & terrifying to me.
Fast forward to one year ago, I was the largest I had ever been. I had just become engaged to the love of my life (who says he loves my curvy hips - God bless him 🙌🏻) & I knew I wanted to make a change before our wedding. I finally had the motivation to cut the bad foods & start working out somewhat regularly. Let me tell you - I saw a change fast! I was so proud of myself. And you know what else? That pride in what I had already accomplished far surpassed my feelings of doubt & self loathing.
I created this page last May & I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous at first. Nervous about friends or family judging me, talking about me behind my back, or not being supportive. I was nervous to put myself out there after seeing so many bloggers I admire be torn to shreds for being too thin or too curvy.
BOY was I wrong. We have built such a strong, supportive community here that I’m incredibly proud of. I’ve finally come to realize that life is far too short to worry about the little dimples on my thighs or the size of my jeans.
I am still learning to love my body - I don’t claim to be 100% there yet, but I’m on my way. I hope my transparency here has helped you feel less alone on your own self love journey.