My little boy and myself in Cambridge.
11 months almost postpartum. I have come across a lot of challenges being a mother. Ranging from breast feeding to bottle feeding. We have had lots of hospital appointments with allergy tests and dieticians helping us to get through this whole thing about eczema. From going through depression the first month or so, to having a lot of emotional days. Its been a tough one for me. Although I battled my Post natal depression when I confided in my husband, I was worried and I had to open up to my doctors and my husband. It was only then I realised that whatever I had or was going through was depression. I missed being able to work on my sewing machine. But I started my business 2 months after my son was born, and I promised myself I would try to think positive and be positive. If I started my work, this would help me be a better mother. And if work kept me busy I would be able to provide little bits and bobs for my boy. And now I have left the depression stage, and recovered from it - I have had my c section pain until now which thankfully the doctors here will investigate further.
I have endured a lot but gained a hell lot of patience. Every-time I see myself crumbling away because of tiredness I would seldom close my eyes and take a few deep breaths and chant, “it will be OK. You can do this.” This little mantra of mine has made me get this far.
Its difficult to manage a business and give attention to my little one but building up the patience has actually given me more power to re organise my schedule. Meaning I tidy the house around his nap time, make dinner and any other chores. And once he is down in the evening, I have dinner with my other half and prepare orders. So mummy by the day, business owner by the night.
We joined a little play group for baby play in our neighbourhood. Its made a vast difference - I get to have a banter with the mums and my little one gets to meet his friends and play with them.
To all the mums out there who have gone through hard days, or are going through them - you’re doing an amazing job and its beautiful never the less to be a mother.